I don’t feel happy I hate being alive Everything I do is just prolonging my suffering I don’t know how to reach out without feeling like I’ll make things worse I feel like I’m constantly gasping and fighting to take a breath I just want to curl into a ball and disappear but I keep trying to meet with friends to maintain the relationship because I know that if I don’t the relationships will just fall apart and I’ll be left even more alone But it’s so fucking exhausting, I’m struggling to put on the facade of normalcy enough for...