A super hopeful and super depressing week in the same. I seriously don't know what to do next because I was planning something major for my life and worked REALLY REALLY hard for it, but LUCK, LUCK, WHAT THE FUCK, why couldn't you on my side this time!? After I had ruled out all the possibilities of the failure, had put in the hours, had made sure I would not trip on even the most minute details, why did it have to be my bad luck which tripped me over at the end. I need to figure out what step...