before the tripBefore a trip with F., I find myself thinking back on all the trips I’ve ever taken for the sake of someone else, or, if I were more of a romantic, I’d say "for the sake of love." I think about how, after those trips, things never turned out the way I’d imagined; how often I felt deeply sad afterward, and how long it took me to recover. My mom found some photos and videos from 2016. Looking at myself back then, I felt such pity for myself; it was a terrible time. I think I was suffering...